Saturday, May 1, 2010

Aimless Reading: The G's, Part 14.1 (Ted Greenwald)


In Your Dreams
Originally uploaded by Michael_Kelleher
Greenwald, Ted
In Your Dreams


Given to me by the publisher, Geoffrey Gatza of Blazevox Books, after a reading by the author at the Karpeles Manuscript Museum in Buffalo. I got to meet the author, however briefly, after the reading. He was feeling ill and couldn't go out afterwards, so we just shook hands and parted ways. We'd been in touch about his having a reading here, but I think it was the Poetics Program that eventually brought him to Buffalo.

I had a dream last night of which I remember a small portion. I had lost twenty dollars at some sort of art gallery, a small one, that felt more like a bar than a gallery. I knew everyone who worked there. A woman I knew found the twenty dollars but refused to acknowledge she'd done so. I hounded her throughout the course of an evening, but she refused to give in. I went home and then came back the next day.

When I arrived I could see her talking to her friend, another woman, it may have been her lover. She held the twenty furtively near her purse. I heard her say she planned to drop the bill in the stall of the bathroom and that she would let someone else find and return it. I waited while she entered the stall.

There happened to be two stalls, both of which were inside the bar. There were no walls separating the bathroom from the main area of the gallery. I wandered into another room to kill some time. A board meeting seemed to be going on. I was surprised to discover how many of my friends were on the board.

When the woman with my money wandered in to attend the board meeting, I slipped out, fell to my knees and began feeling around with my fingers under the stall doors for the bill. I eventually had to reach in near the toilet to pull it out. Satisfied, I returned to the room where the board meeting had taken place.

It had ended by then and people seemed to be milling about, chatting, having a drink. I sat down at a booth, Charles Bernstein also sat down. He pulled out a stack of xeroxed sheets with large text printed on them All the text seemed to have been cut off at the left margin. Charles began to explain in great detail what the cause of the missing margin happened to be. I got distracted by something else. I I don't remember what. I remember feigning interest, though I had stopped paying attention to his explanation.

from In Your Dreams

SUCH AS

With what
With whatever
Don't know
With what
Don't know
Not sure
With what
With whatever
Not sure
Like saying
But meaning
Not sure
But meaning
Wonder if
Not sure
Like saying
Wonder if
Back to how
Any chance
Wonder if
Any chance
Turn better
Wonder if
Back to how
Turn better
Do see
Means tonight
Turn better
Means tonight
Ask again
Turn better
Do see
Ask again
Here either
That what
Ask again
That what
Turn smile
Ask again
Here either
Turn smile
Which were
Didn't happen
Turn smile
Didn't happen
Got nothing
Turn smile
Which were
Got nothin
Weren't you?
You like?
Got nothing
You like?
Make feel
Got nothing
Weren't you
Make feel
Perfect stare
Look down
Make feel
Look down
From down
Make feel
Perfect stare
From down
As though
Shake head
From down
Shake head
Sure about
From down
As though

2 comments:

Annandale Dream Gazette said...

Hi Michael,

May I include this dream in the Annandale Dream Gazette?

Lynn Behrendt

Michael Kelleher, Buffalo, NY said...

Sure thing-- what an interesting project! I am going to put your blog
on my roll.